Have any of you ever listened to Fake it by Seether? That's how I feel most of the time. At school, im faking it. Im pretending to be something im not. Im a bookworm. Everyone knows that. I read fantasy and fiction, so that I feel like im in another, more exciting world. I love to sing, even though im completely tone-deaf. I stay quiet on most of my views, because when i express myself...all i ever get is a "Shut up" from others. I'd love to express myself, not just here in the cyber-world, but at school as well. I want to feel a sense of belonging, like there is someone out there besides my family that cares for me as a friend, instead of insulting me and ignoring me.

I used to believe I had things to offer the world. Now I just believe that no one gives a crap what I say. So im giving up. I'll just keep my mouth shut, and maybe, just maybe, I'll get through Freshman year relatively unscathed. I'll turn to my manips, and see if I can get better. And hey...maybe it won't turn out so bad. Of course....that'd take a miracle.